Crazy For you

I dreamt of you last night
Your hands like warm honey
leaving trails of sweet along my chin
you smelled of dreams
frothy like Guinness stout
I reached for your memory but
it eluded
Your voice melting into
the framework of the unknown
I listen attentively
as if certain it will be long
before I hear you again
Your spirit lingers here friend
Making me lose my footing
Commanding my feet
they disobey
tracing honey trails

Picking the morning from my eyes
I arrest her breaths as she sleeps silently
attempting to tickle each soft exhale
from her pursed lips
she is beauty
still
directed and fearless
I watch as the lids of her
eyes flinch
imagining each moment
she dreams
squeezing my eyes
tight
I attempt transformation
I am earth
she grows valiantly
beneath the soil
raising up like tall oak trees
outsmarting time

Drowned

Resting Supine on antiseptic hospital sheets she holds water streams between
Eyelids praying dams hold
Between thoughts of how she got here
And where she swore in childhood dreams she would be
Skipping stone across sandy expansions
Picking spices from unclaimed lands
She lays now legs in iron stirrups
Feet bare and sore from destination-less journey
Womb spread vast like HIV in black blood lines
She hears chatter
Muffled over by woman sobs
Maternal cries against unnatural destruction of self
Of life turned in loose bowel
Infantile parts gathered from suction tubes placed
Gallantly in containers marked hazardous waste
The skull and cross bone
An ominous reminder of this poison
This unfathomable act
Paradoxical in nature
The Dr. Speaks
Asking only for consent
Clandestinely removing this burden
This choice induced labor
I wonder if his heart is as cold as his eyes
Blue as iced rain
Sleet between legs as metal meats flesh
And I am sleeping
Supine on pristine white sheets
Unaware
perhaps because I would hear their screams
The pleas for mercy
Perhaps we would at once be torn from a place of rest
Denied life
Perhaps it is best I rest here
And dream a little while longer